Fix This

I want to forget. God, I need to forget; to escape these claws that are tearing at my brain!

All the hate. The rage. The blame. The fear. It’s all aimed at me and it burns! It hurts like nothing I’ve ever felt before; like nothing I could’ve ever imagined. 

I’ve tried. So hard. I’ve tried, but nothing helps; nothing works; nothing I do can ever fix what they’ve broken. 

I want it to stop! I need it to stop...it...won’t just stop...it keeps beating- pulsing -and I don’t want it to!

I can’t! I want to...I want to, but I...can’t. I can’t. I can’t. I...I ca...I can’t do anything right.

That’s why I need you! You can do it - you can finish this in a way I never could!

Please. 

Please, I’m begging you to make it stop. I can’t do this anymore. I can’t be this anymore. I never wanted to do this; I never wanted to become this; I never...I never wanted...

I never wanted to hurt anyone.

I wanted to be better.

Please.

I wanted to be better.